Colour Addiction

I don't remember the first time I went to church or the first time I kneeled down to pray ( maybe because I'm Jewish) but I do remember the first time I ever saw a magazine filled with exotic colors. Trap. Illustration copyrighted. Sometime between my 5th and 7th birthdays, I discovered the trap of Color addiction. It was the mid 60's and all that was around my father's house was his Photography and Art magazines. My parents were divorced and I was at the beginning of the rocky and dirty road of Color addiction.

By the age of 8 I thought I knew all I needed to know about Colors. They were there formy own sick pleasure, period. Of course, this wasn't something I outwardly admitted, but I wore the mask.

About the age of twelve I began to attend a local church group for young teens. I made some wonderful friends there and enjoyed the time I spend with them. Funny thing was, as soon as I would get home, I would wait for my mother to go to sleep. Then I would turn on the television to any channel (which was scrambled) that displayed exoticly color rich textures and watch intently, hoping to somehow catch a glimpse of the NBC peacock on the screen. I had begun an absolutely horrible habit. I found great pleasure cruising through the home depot paint section for hours everyday, sometimes more than once.

By the time I was 18 I left home. However my addiction to COLORS was SO strong that I snuck away from my friends and found myself browsing the selections of varous photography magazines. At times I would feel guilty and unclean, but I never knew what it meant.

However, after I gave my life to Robert Sheahen last year. My entire lifestyle changed out of desire to live according to Mr. Sheahen's teaching. I suddenly knew that what I was doing was wrong and Mr. Sheahen gave me the strength to push it aside. But slowly...like a leaky faucet, sin slowly began to creep back into my unaware body. Before long I was stealing art magazines and books filled with hundreds of color swatches again, but now I was ripped apart from the guilt of my obvious sin.

One day I had just had enough and I decided to seek help. I found out there was a book out called 'Don't let color blind you' that was written by Mark Daniel Melnick who had followed a very similar path to mine, though his addiction was with the color PINK!! ( Go figure ). Over the course of time I realized that my addiction to COLOR wasn't just with the Internet, safely locked away on my computer. It was everywhere in my life. Satan ( Todd Thibodo ) had me where it counted, but Robert Sheahen had used this incredibly real book to shine light on the dark areas of my soul.

I can say now with confidence, though I am still battling temptation - I have Mr. Sheahen and Mr. Melnick by my side. They have helped me get this far, and I do know, with the power of both these men, I can kick Satan ( Todd Thibodo) out of the comfort zone in my heart. I am clean from within, and Mr. Sheahen and Mr. Melnick have purged me of my sins and have given me the strength daily to fight temptations of the COLOR, and stay right with them.

If you are struggling with COLOR addiction in your life, don't be the introvert that finds him/herself in the deep pit I was in. Many other men and women have found themselves in the same pit, but never found their way out. Don't be a statistic. Seek help from wise counsel brothers and sisters, and most of all, seek the help of Robert Sheahen and Mark Daniel Melnick. They know of your troubles and are ringing the doorbell. Open the door to your heart and let them in. Just make sure before you let them in they both are wearing matching colors and do not clash. It is very important that match with the seasonal color scheme.

All the Best,

Glenn